First day of the new year and all i want to do is bitch , bitch , bitch!

Shovelling snow. Goddamn. i really hoped i wouldnt have to do that while i was here , but noooooo it had to sneak its way in didnt it? Still the least fulfilling , most mind numbing, back breaking, coooold menial labour chore there is. Bah, winter...

We had our usual gathering at my Aunt/Uncle's house. I dont know why we force ourselves to get together so often during the holidays when things are nothiing but tense most of the time. And depressing. I hung out with the cats and dogs and tried to hide my looks of general disgust.

Teresa's getting married. thats cute and nice. Granted, i hardly know the girl but hell ,we had study sessions... we is tight.

I spent the past few hours sitting by my dog trying to calm it down. It was up too late last night and now its spazzing and not wanting to sleep. Which of course causes my father to flip out and be completely unreasonable. If telling the dog to be quiet dosnt work "shut the fuck up" certainly wont make it any better. He's such an idiot with animals and he takes all his issues he refuses to actually talk about out on this dog.Not physically but he has like a freak out a week over the thing. I seriously worry about his internal structures will all the pent up rage.

Needless to say the less time i spend with my family the more psychotic and hard to deal with they seem. Which in viscious cycle form makes me want to spend less time with them. I'm honestly not sure i can make it through the whole summer living with them. I dont know what i'll do.

Crap. Tomorrow will be sunshine. i promise

CAM