Today was another perfect example of why my feelings are so conflicted over school.

I missed going to my movie. Thats too bad. I miss a lot of movies. If i saw them all i'd be crazy.

nobody came to dodgeball that we set up. Oh well , we lied and told them it was great fun so more would come next time.

We went to value village and i bought a shirt but shyed away from a cool suit jacket because it was 30 dollars. Plus i felt like i was ripping off Mark. I also wanted to decorate my room with 99 cent records but i couldnt bring myself to pay for more room decoration. it must be free from now on.

Then i studied lots. Got my required trainspotting bit done , thats good. Im still stuck for my essay in english. Next week we are starting to dicuss the topics though. I have two piece of shit essay things those days. BASTARDO.

I thought i'd be all alone tonight. My friends are either off to their respective BC homes for the weekend or they were going to "the Burbon" a bar i am exempt from. i refuse to pay for fake id (which is costly) which i will only need for two weeks.

But all wasnt bad. i studied. I watched Iron Chef. We went to a townhouse and ate cake. I talked with lots of groups of friends and played a fun game of trivial pursuit with Allie and her townhouse. It wasnt exactly fun college night but i just dont haven enough GHB to get the girls i like to notice me.

I've decided to give up and go to the Hawksley Workman show and the elbow show in the same week. A little kickstart is just what i need. Get excited about life.

I think i have film ideas ...but they are *shudder* video installation. I hope they work out

I hope

CAM